I wanted the love they wrote about in songs and acted in films
I wanted the daisy chains in fields and midnight swims in lakes far away from home
I wanted the long drives, the secret get aways
I wanted the late night cup of tea on a swing in my back yard, I wanted the confessions, our darkest fears, our scariest thoughts
I wanted someone to give them selves entirely to me, I wanted someone to breath the same time I did, their heart beat the same pace, I wanted someone to be me without being me
But I got 6 miss calls because of the worry when I didn’t reply when I was asleep too long
I got chocolate on days I was sad and couldn’t get out of bed, held for hours when I thought I couldn’t make it
I got patience when I probably didn’t deserve it and kindness when I certainly wasn’t
I got teddy bears won at the arcade and just because flowers
I got trees pruned, picture frames hung up, and urgent chemist runs when I’m sick
But most of all I got “im sorry “I love you” “I’ll keep trying “ and “I’m not going anywhere”
